Miserable...

For so long i didnt update my blog..
Kinda miserable these few weeks..
Maybe is another chapter of my life..
Trying to grab and let things go..
Well, this post is kinda "reply" to someone's blog...
If the person is reading this... ya! only "you" will understand what am i posting below.. I hope you do...
Really salute ppl who said No means No, give up means give up, control means control, let go means let go and quit means quit...
No need clarification? No need time? No respect? No chance? No Q&A? No question mark? Is that cool?
Can i do that?
Set a goal and just go for it...
Dont care bout others?
No need to care others feeling... selfish?
Can i do that?
I won my own heart at this moment.. No one did...
At this moment... No confidence, No rely on others, No fooling, No guessing...
But i love myself! Yes.... I Will...
I want to be tough...
Make things clear and don't drag others..
I will feel sorry...
You guys said i think too much... Is that good o bad?
I love the caring feeling from you...
But i knew i cant be selfish by holding this uncertain feeling between us...
Why?
My heart ache everytime you said sorry to me...
You're sorry or I'm sorry?
Why must come until today?
Why until today we are stil guessing?
No solution?
Not now?
Not this moment?
Lying myself now?
Avoiding it?
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